I really wanted to start this month off with a “feel good”
story, BUT my Mind led me in another direction.
So, for now, that entry will be postponed (sorry my little Booby Bear.)….
The song “A Woman’s Worth,” by Alicia Keyes, kept playing
over and over in my head. I found myself
humming the tune at work, in my car, and at home. I had to ask myself, “Self, what are you
trying to tell me?” For those who would
find it hard to believe that I talk to myself, I’m sorry to disappoint
you. Yes, I talk to myself often. It’s the answers I get that I have to
question from time to time….I’m straying from my thoughts, so let me get back
on track…..My inner voice was telling me to talk about self-worth. However, I had to disagree with that voice
because I have talked about that in a previous blog. We finally came to an agreement that led me
to what this entry is about…..OBSESSION……
Before I go any further, let’s break down the word obsession:
1. Obsess—to preoccupy the mind excessively.
2. Obsession—compulsive, often anxious
preoccupation with a fixed idea or unwanted emotion.
3. Obsessive—excessive in nature or degree. ( Webster’s II New College Dictionary)
There are many types of obsession (like with things, places,
clothes…..) but the one that I am talking about is obsession with a particular
person in or after a relationship. See,
when two people first meet, they hang out and get to know one another. If things go well, they soon end up being a
couple. At first everything seems so
sweet and innocent. You know, things
like calling to make sure you made it to your destination okay or calling to
see what you are doing and to make sure you are okay—wanting to spend every
minute with you—surprising you by showing up to your house unannounced with
flowers or just showing up because he/she missed you…I can go on and on. You think it’s cute because he/she just loves
and cares about you so much, BUT your friends start seeing the whole picture
because you are blinded by rose colored glasses…
When these “sweet” little gestures start turning into every
day, every minute, or every hour---ummmm there MIGHT be something deeper going
on. When he/she tells you “I’m only
happy when I’m with you.” Or “I feel incomplete without you.” Or “I just love
you so much that I need to know where you are at, who you are with, and when
you are coming home.”---RUN LIKE THE WIND….This person has problems because NO
ONE should be the MAIN source of another person’s happiness. You shouldn’t want someone who is incomplete
without you. I mean, who really wants an
incomplete person? Not She, Me, Her (yes, another reference to Tamar Braxton.)….
Calling you ten times a day and then texting you 50 texts,
is NOT NORMAL behavior. Calling your
friends or family members because you FINALLY seen the light (or as I call it,
the Flashing Red Lights and Red Flags flying) and you won’t answer your phone,
is NOT NORMAL behavior….and do I have to mention again the showing up at your
house unannounced???
I know that I’m trying to put a little humor into this, but
it’s really not funny. People like this
are OBSESSED, and they can turn out to be very dangerous. They turn into stalkers. Showing up where you are or phone stalking
you constantly. They confuse being
obsessed for being in love. But, it’s
not LOVE at all. If you break it off
with them, they are extremely jealous of whomever you spend your time
with. Every breath they breathe is
YOU. Every thought in their head, is
about YOU. AND THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL
THAT THIS IS CONSIDERED TO BE OKAY BEHAVIOR.
We hear about it all the time, on the news, where the
obsessed person turns around and murders the object of his/her fixation because
if he/she can’t have that person, no one else will.
And it’s a sad shame that someone has to lose LIFE because someone else
is “damaged.”
So, this brings me back to the word WORTH. By definition, it
means:
1.
having monetary or
material value
2.
to the fullest extent
of one's value or ability
3.
the value of something measured by its
qualities or by the esteem in which it is held heritage of
4.
moral or personal value (Merriam
Webster Dictionary Online).
Relationships with obsessive behavior are a recipe for disaster. And anyone who stays in these types of
relationships or finds that they constantly fall for people that exhibit this
type of behavior, to me, haven’t realized their WORTH. Putting up with tacky behavior and riding on
an emotional rollercoaster over and over again, is not my ideal of LOVE or
being LOVED. YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN
THAT…..I’m not only talking to the females out there; I’m also talking to the
males. If you know you are a QUEEN and
you carry your head up high, your KING will find you. If you know you are a KING and you carry your
head up high, your QUEEN will find you.
Stop settling for the Jokester. Because if you don’t love yourself, how
the HELL can you know if someone truly LOVES you? Like I always say, “don’t fall for the okey
doke.” Make sure it’s REAL. Make sure it’s TRUE AND GENUINE. And know your WORTH.
Just Saying,
Niesey